last nyte was a bad nyte.. huhuhu.. i want to ask for apology.. pliz forgive me dear..

while i was waiting for u, i was listening to RED FM. kebetulan plak tgh slot 'late nite love song'.. huhu.. sungguh mngusik jiwe rage.. so i dedicate diz 2 songs to u dear.. i hope u can forgive me..

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
Saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

Chorus :
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
You are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

[Chorus]
Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
We'll never be alone

[Chorus]
You become the meaning of my life
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life

* You Took My Heart Away by MLTR*

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

* The Reason by Hoobastank*

bersediakah aku melepaskannya???

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Air liur meleleh!!!

ak mau mamam ol of diz!!!!!!
uwa... ni sume sbb nafsu yg menguasai aku sbb ak pose arini..
uwaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

[NASI AYAM PENYEK.. sodap nih.. 1st aku mkn wkt g johor dl.. mak ex-rumet aku blanje.. ni mknn org jowo.. pasni aku nk tnye mak tam aku dia pndai x buat nasik ni]

[ni plak set quarter meal kenny roger roasters.. kalo da mkn mmg agak payah utk b'gerak.. huhu.. da plan lpas dpt gaji nk mamam kenny dgn my lover.. huhu wait erk cyg]


[ni burger mcD.. either chicken mcDeluxe @ double cheese buger.. mane2 pon bleh]

[bubur ayam.. bubur ayam mcD.. cececeh.. nyanyi lak.. ini pon sodap]

CINTA, KEKAYAAN, KECANTIKAN, KESEDIHAN, KEGEMBIRAAN

Alkisah di suatu pulau kecil, tinggallah berbagai macam benda-benda abstrak: ada CINTA, KEKAYAAN, KECANTIKAN, KESEDIHAN, KEGEMBIRAAN dan sebagainya. Awalnya mereka hidup berdampingan dengan baik dan saling melengkapi. Namun suatu ketika, datang badai menghempas pulau kecil itu dan air laut tiba-tiba naik semakin tinggi dan akan menenggelamkan pulau itu. Semua penghuni pulau cepat-cepat berusaha menyelamatkan diri.

CINTA sangat kebingungan sebab ia tidak dapat berenang dan tak mempunyai perahu. Ia berdiri di tepi pantai mencuba mencari pertolongan. Sementara itu air makin naik membasahi kaki CINTA. Tak lama CINTA melihat KEKAYAAN sedang mengayuh perahu.

“KEKAYAAN! KEKAYAAN! Tolong aku!” teriak CINTA. Lalu apa jawab KEKAYAAN, “Aduh! Maaf, CINTA!” kata KEKAYAAN. “Perahuku telah penuh dengan harta bendaku. Aku tak dapat membawamu serta, nanti perahu ini tenggelam. Lagipula tak ada tempat lagi bagimu di perahuku ini.” Lalu KEKAYAAN cepat-cepat mengayuh perahunya pergi meninggalkan CINTA tenggelam.

CINTA sedih sekali, namun kemudian dilihatnya KEGEMBIRAAN lewat dengan perahunya. “KEGEMBIRAAN! Tolong aku!”, teriak CINTA. Namun apa yang terjadi, KEGEMBIRAAN terlalu gembira karena ia menemukan perahu sehingga ia tuli tak mendengar teriakan CINTA. Air makin tinggi membasahi CINTA sampai ke pinggang dan CINTA semakin panik.

Tak lama lewatlah KECANTIKAN. “KECANTIKAN! Bawalah aku bersamamu!”, teriak CINTA. Lalu apa jawabKECANTIKAN, “Wah, CINTA, kamu basah dan kotor. Aku tak bisa membawamu ikut. Nanti kamu mengotori perahuku yang indah ini.” sahut KECANTIKAN. CINTA sedih sekali mendengarnya. CINTA mulai menangis teresak-esak.

Apa kesalahanku, mengapa semua orang melupakan aku. Saat itu lewatlah KESEDIHAN. Lalu CINTA memelas, “Oh, KESEDIHAN, bawalah aku bersamamu”, kata CINTA. Lalu apa kata KESEDIHAN, “Maaf, CINTA. Aku sedang sedih dan aku ingin sendirian saja…”, kata KESEDIHAN sambil terus mengayuh perahunya. CINTA putus asa. Ia merasakan air makin naik dan akan menenggelamkannya. CINTA terus berharap kalau dirinya dapat diselamatlkan.

Lalu ia berdoa kepada Tuhannya, oh tuhan tolonglah aku, apa jadinya dunia tanpa aku, tanpa CINTA? Pada saat kritis itulah tiba-tiba terdengar suara, “CINTA! Mari cepat naik ke perahuku!”

CINTA menoleh ke arah suara itu dan melihat seorang tua reyot berjanggut putih panjang sedang mengayuh perahunya. Lalu cepat-cepat CINTA naik ke perahu itu, tepat sebelum air menenggelamkannya. Kemudian di pulau terdekat, orang tua itu menurunkan CINTA dan segera pergi lagi. Pada saat itu barulah CINTA sadar, bahwa ia sama sekali tidak mengetahui siapa orang tua yang baik hati menyelamatkannya itu. CINTA segera menanyakannya kepada seorang penduduk tua di pulau itu, siapa sebenarnya orang tua itu.

“Oh, orang tua tadi? Dia adalah “WAKTU”, kata orang itu. Lalu CINTA bertanya “Tapi, mengapa ia menyelamatkanku? Aku tak mengenalnya. Bahkan teman-teman yang mengenalku pun enggan menolongku”, tanya CINTA heran. “Sebab”, kata orang itu, “hanya WAKTU lah yang tahu berapa nilainya harga sebuah CINTA itu……”

Fikir-fikirkan…

<3

He said, She said

He said: Have you noticed that the universe is a male?
She said: Yes, I noticed that the entity is a female.
He said: Have you realized that the light is a male?
She said: Yes, I have realized that the sun is a female.
He said: Don’t you like that the poetry is a male?
She said: Yes, and I like better that the feelings are female.
He said: Do you know that science is a male?
She said: Yes, I know that knowledge is a female.

He took a deep breath closing his eyes, and then looked back at her for a few silent moments.

He said: I heard someone say that betrayal is a female.
She said: I saw someone write that disloyalty is a male.
He said: But they say that guile is a female.
She said: But they say that lying is a male.
He said: There’s who assured me that silliness is a female.
She said: And there’s who proved to me that stupidity is a male.
He said: I surmise that murder is a female.
She said: And I affirm that sin is a male.
He said: I learned that ugliness is a female.
She said: And I realized that distort is a male.

He shuddered, taking a glass of water and drinking it all at once. She got scared when he held the glass which made her smile when she saw him drinking. And then he saw her smile.

He told her: I guess you’re right; nature is a female.
She said: And you weren’t wrong; beauty is a male.
He said: No, but happiness is a female.
She said: Maybe, but love is a male.
He said: I admit; sacrifice is a female.
She said: And I avow that forgiveness is a male.
He said: But I am sure that life is a female.
She said: And I am definite that the heart is a male.

He sighed smilingly, reaching for her hand. She walked along with him; sure to have the last word:
“A question is a male, and an answer is a female.”

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X & Y

i was sitting under a tree when you found me. "it's been a long, long time," you said. i nodded and asked, "did you get that piercing? did you face that fear? and do you remember all the plans we made to get high and watch the trains pass, to sit in bus stations, and to just watch the clouds pass for a couple hours?" you nodded and asked, "what's that under your arm?" "oh, it's my sketchbook." you wanted to take a look. and for a little while, we looked at the picture of the world that i drew.

"who are these people in the top right corner?" you asked. i smiled and said, "they're the children." i did not tell you that, in my picture, the bullies and brats were the children who lived in poverty. i did not tell you that the kid with good etiquette was actually the girl who was born with cancer and hated her life at 5 years old. i did not mention that, in my picture, the truth was a lie.

"who are these people in the top left corner?" you asked. i smiled and said, "they're the teenagers." i did not tell you that, in my picture, sluts wore just as little clothes, but all they wore were their ugly hearts and for that, boys didnt want to sleep with them. i did not tell you the science geeks got the girls and failed all their tests. i did not tell you the stoners were the ones who succeeded, and the prom queen was the girl who watched her feet when she walked and washed her hair twice a week.

"who are these people in the bottom left corner?" you asked. i smiled and said, "they're the middle-aged people." i did not tell you that, in my picture, the junkies were the ones who invented a cure to addiction. i did not tell you the catholics were the serial killers. i did not tell you rich bitches were the hobos. i did not tell you that the average mum who makes average food who lives in an average house and has an average husband is the prime minister of canada.

"who's the girl and boy in the center holding hands and looking at each other, and why aren’t they smiling?" you asked. i said, "they’re in love. they don’t need to smile at each other whenever they look at each other, because they just know how the other feels. they just know." i did not tell you that, in my picture, the boy was you and the girl was me. i did not tell you that, in my picture, you were my boyfriend.

which one is me??

BACK TO SCHOOL

ptg ni aku jadik budak2 kjap.. huhu.. dok b'lawan game dgn bdak2 ni dlm www.upsr.net.. main game bahasa.. haha.. bagus x?? kalo aku pakai baju skolah confirm org ingt aku student skolah ni.. aku ingt nk snap pics dlm lab ni.. nk tnjk sket suasana n nk upload dlm ni.. tp aku x bawak lak usb cable hp aku nih.. so x gune gak aku snap pics rite?? next time laa aku amek n uploadkn dlm ni..
actually aku tgh b'debar2 gak skrg ni.. pg td ketua bidang ko-kurikulum ade dtg jenguk aku.. dia ckp dlm mase t'dekat pengetua akn meronda kt lab ni a.k.a tempat aku bertapa selama ni... dia akn tnye ape yg aku da buat spnjg aku b'khidmat d cni.. huhuhu... da 3weeks da aku keje kt cni.. xde laa ape sgt pon aku wat.. sbb ICT equipment dorg sume ok.. pc2 sume ok.. line tenet pon ok.. sbb tu bdak2 ni berebut2 nk masuk lab.. hahaha... td pon aku blom smpi lab lg, dorg da dok mnunggu kt tangga tepi lab 2.. cian dorg.. huhuhuhu... b'balik pd tugas aku, wat mase ni aku da salu tlg cikgu ICT ni dlm p&p dorg... aku tlg ajar subjek ICT skali.. huhu.. siap kna ngorat lg dgn budak2 ni.. klakar btol.. then yg aku da wat, aku da p'kenalkn kt dorg bbrp website yg bleh dorg msk utk belajar & gain knowledge.. mcm upsr.net 2, even dlm 2 ade games tp games yg ade 2 utk memerah otak dorg utk b'fikir.. hahaha.. so bukn laa aku bgtau dorg games yg x senonoh & x bg ilmu kn??? huhuhu...

di kesempatan ini jugak, aku nk tujukn some words to someone.. x sure laa dia bace @ tidak.. kalo dia bace, harap maklum la.. i juz want let u know dat im not going to disturb ur life.. n i hope u wont disturb my life too.. at 1st, my intention was wanna b ur fren.. not becoz want to know what did u know about HIM, ok?? in d early of our frenship, i stil can accept what u had been told about HIM.. but kalo da stiap kali kite borak asyik benda yg buruk je yg dicerita psl org yg kite syg, sape tahan kn??? so i juz want to let u know.. no need to perli2 @ selindung2 anymore.. i have no bad intention 2 be ur fren.. OK????

THE PROPOSAL

Margaret Tate (Sandra Bullock) is the executive editor-in-chief of a book publishing company, Colden Books, who forces her assistant Andrew Paxton (Ryan Reynolds) to marry her in order to avoid being deported to Canada. He grudgingly accepts, under the condition that he is promoted to the position of editor. When the government investigates, the two are forced to spend the weekend with his parents in Alaska in order to sell the lie. The family suggest they could marry the same weekend, and they reluctantly accept. They start to fall genuinely in love as they spend more and more time together. Because of this, during the wedding ceremony, Margaret decides she cannot do this to Andrew and confesses the business arrangement in front of everyone--including the immigration officer handling their case. She is then told that she has 24 hours to get back to Canada, and thus goes back to New York to pack her things. Upon doing so, however, Andrew shows up at the office and confesses his love for her in front of the entire office staff, proposing marriage all over again.
When high-powered book editor Margaret faces deportation to her native Canada, the quick-thinking exec declares that she's actually engaged to her unsuspecting put-upon assistant Andrew, who she's tormented for years. He agrees to participate in the charade, but with a few conditions of his own. The unlikely couple heads to Alaska to meet his quirky family and the always-in-control city girl finds herself in one comedic fish-out-of-water situation after another. With an impromptu wedding in the works and an immigration official on their tails, Margaret and Andrew reluctantly vow to stick to the plan despite the precarious consequences.

agak2 cite ni best x?? aku nk sgt tgk cite ni lpas tgk gazet dia.. cam best.. hahaha.. nantikn cite the proposal 30/7 ni erk... maaf ler x dpt nk upload video trailer nye.. da try byk kali.. tp error jadah nye ntah.. so tgk sndr laa trailer video nye erk.. hehhe

p/s:
~ dpt je gaji, trus nk tgk cite ni... x dpt gaji pon, akn kutarik ORANG tu g wayang gak.. hahaha
~ a few days ago g tgk citer OBSESSED.. leh thn cite nye.. leh jd panduan bg org yg tgh mempunyai HUBUNGAN.. hahahah

3rd day of work

arini da 3rd day aku keje kt cni.. arini agak m'bosankn sket.. xtau nk wat keje ape.. asyik dok m'bilang mase ble tyme nk balik... rase mcm arini lembab gle mase b'lalu.. huhuhu...
so aku nulis dlm blog ni pon sbb da xde keje lain nk buat.. bdak2 FS lain sume da ade plan msg2.. ak mcm nk ikut je plan dorg.. tp aku x usulkn lg.. sbb aku ade keje yg menanti.. iaitu nnt aku kna p'kenalkn bdak2 model khas dlm skolah dgn zoom-A... td br godek2 sket web zoom-A tu.. tp kna register plak dl.. org yg register utk skolah ni plak x ingt ape username & p'wd yg dorg gne utk zoom-A tu.. haprak btol.. so cmne aku nk start nye??? tell me!!!



p/s: hehehe... saje lpaskn tensen.. boring +ngantok tahap gaban..

1st day of work

huhu... mlm td agak x lena gak laa tdo.. kjap2 t'jage.. tkt t'lajak tdo.. huhuh... kononnye laa 1st day keje.. mcm smgt sket.. haha.. lawak je... ermmm.. ble nk lapor diri pg td, kna tgu lame gak laa.. sbb dorg ade assembly.. biase laa kn ari isnin... then aku g jmpe "Datuk K" (gelaran kpd pengetua skolah ni, bak kate mak tam aku) huhuhu.. orgnye kerek + cerewet + tegas.. pg td btol2 prob ttg kehadiran aku di skolah ni.. pengetua tu nk surat jadah ape ntah yg kononnye mengesahkn aku kna b'tugas kt cni.. tau aku da mintak tukar... leh lak dia x caye.. hampreh btol... melambung bil tepon aku td tepon sane cni... kalo leh claim dgn dia xpe gak.. huhu...
then aku g mlawat makmal.. ade 2 tgkt... makmal nye plak jauh dr tmpt org ramai.. mmg aku sekor2 je kt kwsn 2.. mcm skrg ni haa.. ptg2 gni mane ade bdak2 skolah dah.. so ak sekor2 dlm lab n múpdatekn blog aku.. hahaha.... server room dia dlm lab je.. aku da lega da.. tp router plak jauh kt ujung alam.. siot btol... arap2 network x wat prob salu la.. jenuh gak nk ulang alik.. xde pc utk dbaiki.. so kerja aku kurg laa.. cume kalo agak2 rajin aku tlg cikgu2 ict ni ngajor bdak2 ni... huhuhu.. so aku dpt laa title "CIKGU"... huhu

ok...
~tamat~

kerja

yeehaaaaa (huhu.. ni trademark rumet sekejapan aku wkt training br2 ni.. si intan).. actually aku baru je pas abes training kat ilp pedas... training 4 facilitator schoolnet... n 2day ak telah memontengkn diri aku dr klas... bagus btol.. ni sume gara2 smpi umah wangsa maju ni kul 5 pagi!! diulang 5pagi!! klas ak plak suppose start kul 9pagi!! pejadahnye aku kna tdo utk lbih kurg 2jam je?? tdo dlm kul 5.. kna bgn kul 730.. klasnye plak ade 2 subjek.. dr 9pg smlm 9mlm.. yg 1st kul 9pg-3ptg.. yg 2nd kul 3ptg-9mlm.. mmg biol laaa... n skrg ak da wat kptsn utk tak attend dua2 klas... hahaha... syabas sofieatul ain.. anda berjaya memontengkan diri anda... tp klas utk sok pg mmg ak kna attend.. sok merupakan 1st clas utk subjek communication for managers.. tu pon kalo pihak uumkl 2 da jmpe lecturer yg nk ajar.. ntah pape ntah.. nk offer klas tp lecturer x diinformkn utk mengajar.. x sistematik btol!!
ok... refer pd tajuk entry ni.. "KERJA"... ak baru je dpt keje dgn gomen.. tp kontrak laa... tu laa keje aku mcm yg ak tulis kt atas 2.. FACILITATOR SCHOOLNET... aku x pnah pon dgr psl schoolnet 2 b4 ni until d day aku interview aritu.. yg aku fhm tugas aku adlh utk menarik minat pelajar2, guru2 n komuniti yg t'dpt d sekitar tmpt aku b'tugas nnt utk m'gunakan p'alatan ICT.. pendek kate m'galakkn dorg gne komputer laa... kn org kate skrg ni "segalanya di hujung jari".. huhuhu...
psl tempat aku b'tugas plak.. at 1st ak tlh ditempatkn di SMK Tanah Merah 'C'.. skul ni nk dkt2 dh dgn PD.. aku da g jenguk skul 2 aritu.. not bad laaa.. actually aku x kesah pon ditempatkn di mana2.. mcm laa aku x pnah dok asrama kn??? tp yg mslh problemnye, distance n transportation.. jaraknye agak jauh gak laa dr umah aku kt senawang tu.. dlm 30-45 minit p'jalanan.. kalo aku ade lesen n transport ok gak la.. public transport mmg aku xleh nk ikut laa kn.. aku xtau public transport mane yg ade utk g sane.. tp kalo psl kete, aku xde mslh.. ayah aku da ofer kancil kt umah tu... tp tu laa, aku xde lesen.. so xleh laa ak nk m'jahanamkn kancil tu..
then dlm wkt training aritu ramai gak yg nk mintak tuka tmpt b'tugas.. t'msk laa aku... n finally alhamdulillah aku dpt tuka.. aku bakal b'tugas di SMK Batu Kikir.. kembali ke kampung aku.. hahaha.. kt batu kikir ni aku xde prob.. sbb aku ade makcik aku.. hehehe...
so datz all for today
~ thank u ~



p/s: maktam!!!!!!! tunggu lah kedatangan ain... ain nk mkn free kt kantin nnt.. pstu ble gaji kite g shoping same2 erk... g main boling kt era hotel pn bleh... huhuhuhu...